myaurora

Tuesday, October 25, 2005 { 11:40 PM }

i didnt smile much in school though...no mood lehz....maybe is becoz i dun even noe whether i am being offered a chance fer re-exam...but den i tink life has to go on n den i am going to give out my best fer the upcoming PW n AO chinese exam.......

talked to my mum abt my future....well my mum didnt reallie scold me......it is juz dat if i go poly den i hav to give up my chinese, which is my strongest subject n the subject which i reallie had a passion for....i dunnoe whether i shld juz give it up like this?...i hav another option; dat is to join NIE to study Diploma in Chinese Teaching.......earlier this year i actually hav passed thru an interview with MOE n has been offered a place to study dat diploma but den many of my fren has advised against me from going fer that course coz is like the prospect fer that course is nt reallie v gd....well i could go fer that again?.....another option is to join Ngee Ann's chinese studies...but den i hav difficulty meeting dat criteria....hav to go fer inteview......but den i tink i most likely will wan to do chemical engineering coz i eyed fer dat course b4 release of Os result....well juz dat PJC has such strong attraction dat i chose it again??....haha....ya....

i guess mr yap said something which was reallie true: even if u get promote, will u be able to pass ur A level dat is enough to get u into university?.....this sentence is enough to make me think again.....n juz now when i toked to my mum she also brought up this point..........

i dunnoe ar but den fer me personally i tink i could do much better den this, esp fer maths....coz is like my stats i onli scored 2 marks out of the possible 40 marks!
...how could dat be....maybe is becoz i did pure maths section first, den got too stressed den i forgot everything abt stats.......n my pure maths is nt gd at all.......n i counted on stats to help me!........my econs also, MCQ n DRQ were alright but my essay i onli got 12 out of 75 marks!........this is like......test i thought were ok.......well.....maybe dat is the problem without mid-year exam ba....coz i always use mid year exam as a guage to improve my self....b4 the exam i already tell pple dat i might flunk my promos coz dere is no mid year to like kind of "help" me....

well i guess wad is done is done...i also dun even noe whether i am being offered a chance fer re exam? coz is like sch's policy is u nid to hav 1 A n 2AO pass b4 they offer u reexam?.....i onli got 1A n 1AO pass....mr yap says he dunnoe but den will dey give me a chance?....i can onli pray hard.....

of cuz i tink this time round my exams i am quite satisfied wif my chinese ba....though i tink language could be a bit better....the lit part i was quite surprised dat my kong yi ji essay qns i got 13.5 out of 20!....i didnt study kong yi ji much.....coz i wanted to give my full attention to lin shi bao fo jiao n san xia zhong......but den fer dat two qns i onli got 9/20 fer both qns......funny right.....well overall i got a C fer chinese? or B...i nt too sure.....gp i got 45 marks?.....was lucky man......my compo saved me.....coz my compre was in a mess.....

"where will i go from here??......." dat is the qns i hav been asking myself...i am nt reallie to upset to live on or feeling damn sad coz i failed my promos but den i am feeling a bit confused instead....retaining is out of qns coz doing the new syllabus is like.....well....i tink the new syllabus requires u to do four compulsory sub.....one sci n arts sub.....if i cant do three sub den how am i going to take four sub???...nt dat i am afraid to lose face becoz i "retained", anyway so many years of education i hav been scolded so many times fer failures dat i am immune to it, but is juz dat i am thinking from the point of feasibilty n reality....even when i pass my re exam(i hope dere is), can i cheong all the way to my As?.....

dere r really many things to tink abt it, but as lin lao shi said, when i met her when i was abt to go home ,she told me to take things easy n see how it goes....she said even eventually i dun get promoted n go poly, she said at least i noe JC isnt the place fer me....ya......

i tink i stop here ba......my hand r tired....i better sleep to get charged up fer tmr......coz dere r many things to do like PW, AO chinese......