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Sunday, November 27, 2005 { 11:31 PM }

hmm today both my parents got to work so onli me n my bro stayed at hoome.......haha......woke up at arnd 9 plus in the morning.....ya den do the usual stuff i had to do in the morning (brush teeth, had breakfast.......).....yup, den switched on my computer to kind of like do "regular maintainence".......yup coz in idle mode it already used up 63% of the RAM (my com's RAM is 256MB).....ya so of cuz will hav to do something abt it larhz or else reallie quite lag.......open abt six msn chatbox at the same time den jiu cannot tahan liao.....i go to "run", den type "msconfig" to use dignostic startup function to adjust which application to startup when i on my computer (becoz some application r reallie redundant n u do not nid dem de, for example, microsoft office toolbar).....yup like this, adjust here n dere, den free up to 63% free when idle......i learnt this trick from a computer magazine....yup...........

after adjusting i did some studying....on maths n function graph....kept drawing n drawing larhz...........den after dat had lunch, i fried rice dat r left from yesterday........fried with egg n canned spice pork cube........oh man dat wad nice!.....i also fried the seaweed chicken.....had a v v full lunch........after lunch i was quite lazy larhz, so i had a bathe, den tried to study but den quite lazy....so i switched on my computer, den study with music lorhz.....kept repeating the SHE songs.......yup at leats dat motivated me to study a little........did some qns on maclaurin expansion......den i also got try to do the promos maths paper again....the stats part......realised dat dey were quite easy, how come it seems so hard last time?......haha......well...........

last nite had some thoughts over some stuff ba, while sending chean thing a MV........i got two friends who i noe since my kindergarden days (dun wan to name dem).......comparing the three of us, i feel dat.......i am.....aiya, dun noe how to say.......one of dem he is nt gd in his studies but den at least he is gd in sports, has many girls after him coz he is handsome n noes how to hav fun in life.......the other one he is v gd in his studies n is A student...........den wad am i?........reallie gd in nothing..... not gd in sports, not gd in studies.......dat day my mum n me when we r toking abt dem i started to realise this fact.......out of the three of us at the end of the day i might be the one achieving nothing.......be frank, i am reallie gd at nothing, everything average except studies, which is going downhill.......no, i am not gd in studies, no i am not gd at sports...........n i dun enjoy super popularity in sch or among frenz n i am just a normal somebody who doesnt make a big difference out of other pple's life.....haiz~......does it hav to be like dat?.....i dunnoe.....i rmb some say which says dat dere will be a talent in u which u dun discover it......17 years of my life le, no indication of this talent still.........i am not wanting to be someone great who can win medals in olympics or becoming a top A level student or wad but den i juz wish for an area in life which i am gd in n i enjoy doing it......no doubt studies r important n no matter how difficult it is a muz concentrate on it but den y i cant juz excel or be gd in something else so i can motivate myself to go further in my studies n my life?.....i am reallie thankful to my frenz who helped me n motivate me but den dey cant always be by my side.......i reallie nid to find a solution i guess.............

"having motivation=half the work done........."