myaurora

Monday, September 18, 2006 { 1:06 AM }

i am here to blog abt some stuff which i dun wan to think abt it.....

firstly, i m apologetic for making things into this mess....yes, it was unfair dat me n stella called it quits for this event suddenly, though we have decided not to in the end, but certain things i juz wan to say it out.

me n stella is under a lot of stress, i can say dat we are going next to crazy. Stella's mum is pressuring her, as u pple noe v well. For me, NO WAY i gonna drop out of sch or repeat my studies AGAIN. One time is enough.

So wad we are stressing abt?...this event is going to last for half a year, stella's thinking dat this event will distract her studies and stuff like dat, further more she has completely no experience in such stuff and i can tell u she noe absoultely nothing, when she heard dat dere are so much stuff to be done, obviously she probably gonna get scared and let her imagination run wild n said something which she didnt mean it.

for me, half a year event?...omg, so many things to be done, will it distract my studies?. A i said, failing once is enough, my parents dun stress me, but i hav to ans the world, my frenz n relatives who hav been supporting me....

i called u, u told me stuff like dat, yes, i can understand ur mood, but certain things juz let me rant out.

u told me i hav no rights to interfere abt stella quitting n ask herself to msg u, wad i wanna say is, when she noe nothing, how can i sit dere do nothing? do u noe dat she hav to ask me for help even for drafting the letter of quitting (which is useless now by the way). ok, i m partly at fault, i m really sorry for being a kaypo, but i wan to tell u dat i simply cannot juz watch n do nothing, NO WAY.

u also told me dat u are stressed out for ur own stuff n told me dun give u these kind of nonsense again. Ok, i can give u my words dat such a thing will NOT happen again . We were rash in our decision, as i said we both going crazy n we apologize again for this.

i wont be angry at the way u tok to me on the phone, coz i can understand ur feelings, juz to let u noe my own blood related brother toks to me this way sometimes, nth else could be more worse.

lastly, juz a sorry, i noe u might think dat after going thru all the trouble n yet juz a sorry? but other den sorry wad else can i say?.....nobody wans it to happen, i m nt looking backwards anymore....everybody in the event wans it to be a success...i juz hope i hav learnt something out of it and it wont affect how we cooperate in the future.