myaurora

Tuesday, July 24, 2007 { 12:39 AM }

tmr is my big day (no more wisdom for me?? coz i getting my wisdom tooth out...)
haha.

so many things to do.

=/

so pressed for time, yet so many things and so many troubles.

sometimes sibei dulan

but wad to do?

easily irritated.

everyday overslept, esp for 9am lessons.

nvr ending pile of work.

lectures SUX because i dunnoe wad teachers talking. even when i study myelf n ask my frenz, i STILL DUN UNDERSTAND.

am i really so poor in understanding those bloody technical stuff?

for example MI. failed MI common test. i hav to take retest and study again so dat i really got an idea wad MI is talking abt.

let me repeat MI DEL and TP?

siao ar, waste time ar. people 3 years graduate liao u 4 years den graduate? u wan see pple graduate or u wan graduate with pple?

"人家坐车，你走路咯”

easier said den done.

it is so mentally and emotionally torturing. i been thru once, i hav no intention of doing it again.

i agree, sometimes (sometimes only ok?) i am a bit lazy and my attitude towards work is cmi. but den, facing with so many stuff, n stuff which i hate n dun like, how u expect me to like it? i FORCED MYSELF very hard to do those stuff. everytime i study those things i really FORCED myself to do it. i always feel damn sleepy in class nowadays, i am abt to resort to drinking chicken essence during class.

"dun blame others la, blame urself for not hardworking"
"stop pushing the blame to others, u only have urself to blame"
"ur attitude problem towards work. dats where u fail terribly"
"concentrate in class and stop dozing off"

thinking abt it, i dun really hav anything to distract me.

-PSP
-PS 2
-nitendo
-xbox
-PDA
-ipod
-creative MP3 players
-MP3 players
-gameboy

i do NOT own any of the above before, and not for now.

but why my studies still sux? none of those stuff can distract me because i dun hav any!

i hav an old hp with a 2MB memory, cam. dats all.

i am nt trying to pity myself, but maybe my studies no good, so i shld not have those gadgets? i dun "qualify" to play with those gadgets?

a laptop counted? i dun hav a choice, need it for studies, otherwise i wouldnt hav bought it. i dun play games (except for CS which i play only in sch leisurely). Nt hardcore gamer also. i dun DOTA (i hav the game but i dun play it).

i had my computer when i was 7years old. stop envy-ing me, so? more like i dun really noe how to play computer games at dat time also. do i noe a lot abt computers? i dun dare to say so.

my mum has nvr bought those gadgets above, nt even from young (rmb digimon and tamagochi?) for me. i always dream of having dem when i was young.

maybe dat has cultured me into a person who doesnt seek rewards from helping pple bah, in a way.

Some parents reward their children after a major exam (like PSLE, O level, A level, or when graduation). but my mum doesnt, for me.

i am nt bias against her for rewarding my bro, i noe she did reward my bro when my bro did well for his PSLE, O level. coz i noe myself too well dat if i were my mum i wont even reward my children if dey didnt score well.

i am just glad dat dey didnt kick me out of the hse for sluggish results produced in JC1. No, no one shld say dat my parents doesnt dote me. whoever says dat i will kick dem. dey do, i noe.

i just realise, when u are happy, u dun really care abt how much money u hav or dun hav. but when u are upset or unhappy, u will find dat u wan lots n lots of money to keep u secure.

i am just waiting for the day i officially graduate. dats when i get to choose wad i wan to study or do in the future.

*i missed a chance last time and the next chance dat comes along i will nt let go*

some will noe wad i am talking abt, but for others who hav no idea, i hav something in mind dat i wan to accomplish. =)