myaurora

Wednesday, January 16, 2008 { 12:54 AM }

ok, i haven been typing proper sentences and "phrases" since the start of 2008 at this blog. so i shall do this now.

so, i have been posted to non-iap path, which was exactly wad i chose. do i regret? NO. why i choose non-iap? i have my reasons for choosing non-iap. Firstly, i think my boss will fire me, considering dat i am so slow in learning things and i need more time when doing things, i bet my boss would be so pissed dat he or she will already fire me on the first day.

Secondly, i let others have the chance.

Thirdy, i nt keen (imagine doing something dat u hate for ur rice bowl, isnt dat like being blackmailed for money???) in a job in this sector, so dats why i let others hav the chance.

Fourthly, i choose non-iap nt because of stella (she chose non-iap too, which i dun understand why actually)

Fifth, stella choose non-iap nt because of me.

Attached to some companes require you to write a resume and go thru interview. WHAT do i have for pple to see? i can tell you my answer is practically nothing. what do i have to write in my resume? sadly, i can tell you is nothing also. Stop telling me companies do nt just look for grades only (mygrades NEVER even hit the magical 3.5 before, NEVER, not even the first semester, where everybody score like 3.8 3.9, i am only at 3.3), they will always see ur results FIRST. Dats the truth. true, i may be hardworking and willing to learn but with the economy turning so fast, wad everyone wants is SPEED AND EFFICIENT, which in this case i am afraid i will fail if i go into this sector.

i hav set sights at some stuff, and for my future route. i noe pple arent just going to believe and nobody cares, so i shant say it out here. Rmb, wad is good for you might be posion to others.

and i am nt crticsizing non-iap or iap. each has its pros and cons.

i tink i shall stop saying abt iap or non-iap stuff for nw.

my life, is pretty screwed up.
this is the whole mess i hav gotten into.
i do not care if i think i will have a future because of my goals,
but rather, the situation nw for me is totally brokened into million pieces.
What is fear, emotional, and upset,
has turned into anger, rage, and rashness.

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